We are off to Bath tomorrow for a few days. We've never been away over the Christmas/New Year period before, and just wanted to make the most of our time off together, before work kicks in again.
Tonight is a dvd night, and we first watched 'The Heart of the Matter'
Although a really good film, and introduced some very interesting discussion on adultery and suicide afterwards, as we enjoyed sherry on ice, it was a little intense for what we needed, and so once again out came 'The Holiday'
Yeah.....more like it!
Well, it's that time of year when we do our New Year posts. It's a difficult one for me really, as I find New Year not really that important, and sometimes rather scary and depressing. It's nothing more than just a date, and yet it holds such different expectations for people generally. Some think of it as a chance to make a fresh start at things, but most in my experience look to the coming year with fear. There's worry about continued financial difficulty, blissfully forgotten for a brief moment through the Christmas festivities, troubled relationships, difficult work set ups and old age etc, all to face yet again, for another year. I would count Christmas Day as the start to a new year ahead, instead of the drunk mayhem that midnight on January 31st is at the moment. There are more suicides on New Year than at any other time of the year, for obvious reasons. A bit gloomy for a post? Well, unfortunately that's the reality of the world we live in. So let's forget the date, and just continue to take the Christmas good feeling with us into 2014.
I don't do resolutions either, I do more like hopes and plans, as my resolve is weak and I usually break any definite plan with a sort of in built destructive gene. It's inevitable. So, what are my 'plans'? There are only five, but fundamentally important to a 'me' that need to be nurtured.
1. Lose weight and get fitter. I contracted Rheumatic Fever when I was younger, which left me with a heart valve that flutters like a butterfly in the wind. I'm getting older, and feeling the physical pressure that this brings with it, and getting more out of breath than I should be. The DVT on my 50th birthday also scared the hell out of me, and over the last few months things are hurting more often than I would like.
2. Attend church more. I left my church a few years back, as I found things getting more and more difficult regarding preaching both by the minister, and unfortunately some of the fellowship. God has never left me in the years since, and my faith and trust has never waned, but infortunately my attendance and prayer has, and that needs to change.
3. Maintain a more structured business. Work can get hard, very hard, and as I get older it's not getting any easier. As a result, my office has lost most of it's regimented order of years gone by, and our last discussion with the accountant highlighted some much needed improvements. I am a paperwork and spreadsheet freak by nature, liking everything completely in order, and so I'm frustrated at how messy things have got over the last year. This has had a knock on effect when quotes and letters need to be worked on as well. Arriving home too tired most days, yet more paperwork wasn't high on my 'to do' list. That will have to change also.
4. Develop more 'me' time. Combine most of the things above, and through either time, energy or will power, my own personal headspace has taken more of a backseat than I like. To me, it's so important for all of us to keep a little time to meditate on things within our lives, and also just sometimes switch off completely. If we let life have all of the time, how can we look at things rationally and objectively? This blog is, for me, just one area where I can let my imagination and creativity flow a little. It's also a bit of a release valve for emotions, and so I will enjoy continuing to post. Add to this a desire to start drawing more, a passion that also has taken a back seat, but I have already brought out everything and added them to my new easel and charcoals, and dabbled once more. Reading, fishing and kayaking will also take more of a centre stage.
5. Take my grandson wild camping. For most of my life I have wild camped. In fact both Claire and Rebecca have taken part on several occasions, and from 6 months old, which led to some very interesting times in the heart of the silent and pitch dark forest. Nappies and feeding took on a whole new meaning. And so, as I have been promising myself for the last couple of years, but haven't because of the 'stuff' aforementioned, This needs to go to the top of the bucket list for 2014.
Hopefully, if I can get a grip on all these things, it will build a better me physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
In about ten days I hit 53, I can't believe it. Let's try and make it to 73 eh?
What are your thoughts and plans for 2014? I would sincerely like to know, as I enjoy all of your blogs immensely, and feel a strange companionship with those in my own blog 'community'. Can't wait for all of your future postas.
I leave you with my favourite painting, by my favourite artist. It always fills me with a sense of warmth and peace whenever I look at it, and the gardening theme is close to home too.
Have a wonderful New Year, however you see it in, and I will see you all when we get back.
The Artist's Garden at Eragny - Camille Pissarro